Black Holes For College Tuition - 1069 Words

I could tell you about how growing up with two moms isn’t the easiest or how watching their fights escalate to physicality in one night isn’t a ten year old girl’s favorite thing to see. I could tell you how custody battles are black holes for college tuition and very frustrating, especially the seven year long ones with no foreseeable end. I could tell you how waking up to find that just upstairs your mom had died laying next to your two younger brothers isn’t the easiest news to hear and how moving in with your grandma and going to a new school your sophomore year isn’t easy. I could tell you how putting a blanket over your grandma after she’s fallen asleep on the couch and praying to a god that I don’t even believe in that he doesn’t†¦show more content†¦She didn’t expect to lose her mom before she could even graduate high school, or her brothers graduate middle school and certainly my grandmother did not expe ct to have to bury her own child and yet she’s still been a rock for us. She has had to be because she knows everything will have to be okay eventually. But on that day, when my mom died, nobody ever said those magical words to me. Nobody but myself. At least my brothers had me to blame for the false hope, but I didn’t know how I was going to live with myself thinking that I let them down because no, my mom wasn’t okay and I knew that the second I saw her blue lips and colorless feet. Some people feel the need to force others to grow up in an instant. To just face reality head on and completely vulnerable, but this is what leaves people messed up. Isn’t it? My imagination lets me enter this realm of unsteadiness yet pure placidness that I just can’t fathom having in reality. It seems that some people think of those that escape to this realm for comfort as cowards. I know that’s what I thought about Paul Berlin at first. To be honest, I was getting a little annoyed by his constant jumping back and forth from imagination to reality, but as his story went on, all I wanted to read about were the thoughts going on in his head. I’ve spent the past couple years developing this other world for myself to